• Being the ball

    Being the ball

    A couple of weeks ago, as I was on my way to the gym, I was stopped at a normally busy intersection, which was not busy at all that morning. As I waited for…

  • Here and Now

    Here and Now

    I’m a ruminator. I spend more time inside my mind either trying to understand the past or plan for the future than I do in my body in most moments, unless I’m in pain…

  • The goal: Ground down to grounded

    The goal: Ground down to grounded

    There are days I forget. Days I still wake up and it takes me a while to remember that my to do list is my own. While this respite didn’t come in a way…

  • BALANCING

    BALANCING

    I thought this quote by equestrian and nervous system expert Jane Pike was very helpful, especially during these unsteady times.

  • Rough drafts and sketchy new beginnings

    Rough drafts and sketchy new beginnings

    For the first time in 36 years I don’t have a job or role, goals and metrics, boxes to check, and to-do lists to complete by which to measure my worth, my value, to…

  • The ache

    The ache

    I still feel weary and out of sorts at least part of most days, and also guilty for not doing more than I am. I’ve talked to others who feel the same. Pinched between…

  • Trust that what’s next will be there when you are ready

    Trust that what’s next will be there when you are ready

    My nervous system and brain are still working on letting go. My heart and gut know there is a right next thing. I guess until it reveals itself, and my whole self agrees, we…

  • controlling vs. allowing

    controlling vs. allowing

    As humans, we are wired to look for and solve problems. When there’s not one in front of us, our minds are brilliant at conjuring them up. For me, this manifested in lots and…

  • self-absorbed, self-explored

    self-absorbed, self-explored

    It’s been a rough week, even though the weather has been glorious. I feel like I’m made of lead. Part of that is struggling with and getting caught up in the noise going on…